100 Reasons to love me, for me.
1. I never knew what I wanted to "be" when I grow up. I still don't. I figure I will just go with the wind and let be.
2. Halloween was my favorite (and still is!) I was probably a princess 8 times out of the 12 years I went trick or treating.
3. Other costumes consisted of Miss Piggy, a Clown (but I made my mom wear the face paint instead), a Bear, and an Angel among others I am sure.
3. I thought I had the meanest parents in the world when I was a kid. I don't. I am very glad I was raised the way I was!
4. I have thought I need to lose weight since I was probably 11...maybe younger. But I simply cannot go without sweets.
5. Even though I know I should, I don't pay close attention to the government and it's going ons.
6. I watch too much tv.
7. I have never been much of a partier. Most of the time I would rather just hang out, get food, or go to a movie.
8. I was seriously shy in school...I still am...but not nearly as much. I didn't talk to anyone and I always wanted the "cool" kids to be my friend.
9. I seriously eat like a 10 year old...which is bad since I only have -me- to tell me "no" now.
10. I had the opportunity to be friends with the "cool" kids in first grade. I remember it like yesterday: We were playing at recess and I was told I could be their friend if I would pick up stickers (the little round pointy things found in the grass) with them... apparently they were collecting them. I didn't like touching them, so I went back to my friends on the swings, disappointed. I wish I had noticed the comical irony in this before years of desperately wanting to be accepted.
10. If I could afford it, I would drink a blended coffee drink EVERY DAY.
11. I over think and over worry.
12. I was mean to my mom and my brother when I was a kid. I am sorry. I am not sure why I was so cruel.
13. I love doing anything creative: scrapbooks, sewing, interior decorating, any day I can pull out my tote of markers and colored pencils is a good day.
14. I always think people hate me. I don't know why but I generally do not feel accepted. Most times.
15. When I have a bad day...my temper is almost uncontrollable. For example, I broke an outlet cover out of blind rage when a plug wouldn't stay in. This is not huge, but just an example.
16. Kyle is my first boyfriend ever that I never, even for a second, thought of being with someone else...someone in my mind for "next". I am pretty sure that is how you "know".
17. I always try to be nice. When I say or do something even remotely mean I feel awful for hours...even when it's things I know I shouldn't feel bad about.
18. I have always had a hard time hanging on to friends. I don't know why.
19. I have always been jealous of people who get to say "we've been friends since first grade!". I wish I had that connection.
20. I don't think I will ever be good enough for myself.
21. I cannot wait to have kids (yet I know right now is not a good time). I have always known being a mom is something I want to be.
22. I seriously cannot stand when it gets humid out...when my skin feels icky and sticky all I can think if is a shower.
23. I have always dreamed of my wedding someday. Not all in detail...but just in general.
24. But one thing I always wanted was the father/daughter dance. Every time the thought of this passes and the fact that it will no longer be able to occur, I cry.
25. I know how insanely lucky I am to live the life that I do. I am thankful and I try my very best not to take it for granted.
26. I don't like to drive. If someone could always be at my disposal to drive me, I would be very happy.
27. I can NEVER say no to ice cream. Ever.
28. My favorite music is something I can relate to.
29. I hate when people are rude to me at work. Please don't be rude to me. I work very hard for very little pay. I CHOSE to work retail...and yes, I have a degree. Don't act like I am stupid. I am not.
30. In middle school I was in two, yes TWO bands. SAJA (stood for our names: Sara, Ashley, Jennafer, and Alisha) and Girlz with Attitudez.
31. I honestly thought we would be famous someday...funny thing is...past middle school I no longer talked to any of these girls (ok...every now and then Sara and I talk on facebook).
32. Even funnier...I can't sing. Well...I don't think I am THAT bad...Kyle tells me otherwise. But he is a good singer, so maybe he would know.
33. If I could wear a dress everyday, I would.
34. I have had my heart broken...
35. And I have broken hearts.
36. The one thing I hate more than anything is a lie. Big or small, I always want the truth.
37. Sometimes I day dream about how life would be if my dad were still here.
38. I live my life as if he were. Kinda like WWDS. What Would Dad Say? Haha.
39. I wish I could help the people in my family that need it. And deserve it.
40. I used to HATE my name. I wanted something "cooler" and unique. Now I don't mind...
41. But I don't like when people pronounce it wrong. JennAfer DOES in fact sound different than JennIfer. Please go with Jenna if you don't get it.
42. I have always loved to bake. I remember getting and Easy Bake Oven when I was a kid...and I also remember I only made the few packs it came with...the portions were simply too small!
43. So a few Christmases later I got cookie sheets and recipe books.
44. But I still cannot bake a decent cookie.
45. I don't remember having chicken pox...I was only a few months old.
46. But I do remember telling the other kids that I was too young to cry. I was apparently very confused. It would be awesome if babies didn't cry until they were...maybe one!
47. I want to travel all over; Greece, Australia, France, England, ect.
48. I get REALLY frustrated when it takes me more than one time/try to learn something.
49. I LOVE roller coasters...even though they scare me.
50. I am seriously claustrophobic. I was not always. I don't know when this started.
51. I was taught that all girls are princesses...I still believe this.
52. I slept with a blankie until I was 20...and yes, I am nearly positive it is in storage.
53. I cry in movies. This tends to be embarrassing.
54. I have no patience. Ok...some when I want it...but otherwise notta.
55. I am soooo glad facebook/myspace/youtube didn't exist when I was in high school.
56. I have always hated gym class. Yes, I was the kid that stood in one place while the other kids played dodgeball. This worked out well...as I would typically get "out" fairly soon...but the times I was one of the last somehow was the worst!
57. I got a bad perm in 6th grade and had to cut my hair so short the back was shaved some.
58. I got teased for this.
59. I was mean to some people in middle school and high school. I don't know why...but I remember poking fun (I seriously feel bad about this now).
60. My style has changed a million times over the years...but I do think I have finally found "me".
61. I met a girl named Kristan my first year of college...when I first saw her I said to myself "I would NEVER be friends with her" ironically we became really good friends and I learned not to judge a book by it's cover.
62. She also taught me how to be positive and optimistic.
63. We haven't talked in years, but if I could, I would thank her from the bottom of my heart. She really changed how I view things.
64. My first kiss was behind the shed with the neighbor boy. I was 3.
65. I love thunderstorms...
66. But severe weather tends to scare me.
67. I love getting mail...real mail. But not bills.
68. I love a good hug. I wish it were normal to hug people besides family when you leave. It always feels awkward to just say "bye" and walk away.
69. I love gardening...but I am not any good at it.
70. I seriously have to shower...every. day.
71. I love buying gifts for people...
72. Even better, I enjoy making them.
73. I own more makeup than any one person could ever use.
74. I hate when people judge me.
75. I hate when people stop when there is no stop sign...drives me crazy.
76. I am terrified of the dentist.
78. I have had several pets in my life...but I had a big dog named Bear and he was by far my favorite.
79. I love powder cheese. Not like parmesan cheese...like cheese puffs, cheese curls, cheese balls...
80. But I am not much of a real cheese eater.
81. I finally know what love is...and couldn't be happier.
82. I love pictures...but I always feel silly taking them.
83. I love dressing up.
84. I get really annoyed with rude people...and unapologetic people.
85. I wish I liked to eat a larger variety of foods.
86. I had a teacher tell my parents that she thought I was on drugs because I didn't talk to the other kids in class. Luckily my parents knew that this was untrue. I was just not friends with anyone in that class.
87. I have always gotten along better with guys than girls.
88. I love a good laugh.
89. Popcorn is probably one of my most favorite snacks.
90. I have always had issues with self confidence. I always think I am too tall or too fat or too dressed up...or not enough. Something is always flawed.
91. I am a "day" person. I don't like early mornings or late nights...with some exceptions.
92. My favorite color is green. Just about any green. Purple would be next...then pink.
93. I try to live my life with no regrets. You can't take back your past so you might as well embrace it.
94. I cut my own bangs regularly.
95. I would do just about anything for my friends and family. You guys mean the world to me.
96. I don't mind doing laundry...but I hate putting it away.
97. I have always wanted to learn how to dance.
98. I am really bad at math. I used to cry while attempting my homework. Luckily all the math I do use I fully understood. Algebra is NOT useful. For me anyways.
99. I consider myself a Christian...yet I have only been to church a few times in my life. Since everything is based on interpretation...I don't like someone telling me what to think. If you go and enjoy it...that's awesome. To each our own with this topic.
100. This was so much more difficult that I initially thought!
If you actually read through all of this...you are truly awesome. :)
2. Halloween was my favorite (and still is!) I was probably a princess 8 times out of the 12 years I went trick or treating.
3. Other costumes consisted of Miss Piggy, a Clown (but I made my mom wear the face paint instead), a Bear, and an Angel among others I am sure.
3. I thought I had the meanest parents in the world when I was a kid. I don't. I am very glad I was raised the way I was!
4. I have thought I need to lose weight since I was probably 11...maybe younger. But I simply cannot go without sweets.
5. Even though I know I should, I don't pay close attention to the government and it's going ons.
6. I watch too much tv.
7. I have never been much of a partier. Most of the time I would rather just hang out, get food, or go to a movie.
8. I was seriously shy in school...I still am...but not nearly as much. I didn't talk to anyone and I always wanted the "cool" kids to be my friend.
9. I seriously eat like a 10 year old...which is bad since I only have -me- to tell me "no" now.
10. I had the opportunity to be friends with the "cool" kids in first grade. I remember it like yesterday: We were playing at recess and I was told I could be their friend if I would pick up stickers (the little round pointy things found in the grass) with them... apparently they were collecting them. I didn't like touching them, so I went back to my friends on the swings, disappointed. I wish I had noticed the comical irony in this before years of desperately wanting to be accepted.
10. If I could afford it, I would drink a blended coffee drink EVERY DAY.
11. I over think and over worry.
12. I was mean to my mom and my brother when I was a kid. I am sorry. I am not sure why I was so cruel.
13. I love doing anything creative: scrapbooks, sewing, interior decorating, any day I can pull out my tote of markers and colored pencils is a good day.
14. I always think people hate me. I don't know why but I generally do not feel accepted. Most times.
15. When I have a bad day...my temper is almost uncontrollable. For example, I broke an outlet cover out of blind rage when a plug wouldn't stay in. This is not huge, but just an example.
16. Kyle is my first boyfriend ever that I never, even for a second, thought of being with someone else...someone in my mind for "next". I am pretty sure that is how you "know".
17. I always try to be nice. When I say or do something even remotely mean I feel awful for hours...even when it's things I know I shouldn't feel bad about.
18. I have always had a hard time hanging on to friends. I don't know why.
19. I have always been jealous of people who get to say "we've been friends since first grade!". I wish I had that connection.
20. I don't think I will ever be good enough for myself.
21. I cannot wait to have kids (yet I know right now is not a good time). I have always known being a mom is something I want to be.
22. I seriously cannot stand when it gets humid out...when my skin feels icky and sticky all I can think if is a shower.
23. I have always dreamed of my wedding someday. Not all in detail...but just in general.
24. But one thing I always wanted was the father/daughter dance. Every time the thought of this passes and the fact that it will no longer be able to occur, I cry.
25. I know how insanely lucky I am to live the life that I do. I am thankful and I try my very best not to take it for granted.
26. I don't like to drive. If someone could always be at my disposal to drive me, I would be very happy.
27. I can NEVER say no to ice cream. Ever.
28. My favorite music is something I can relate to.
29. I hate when people are rude to me at work. Please don't be rude to me. I work very hard for very little pay. I CHOSE to work retail...and yes, I have a degree. Don't act like I am stupid. I am not.
30. In middle school I was in two, yes TWO bands. SAJA (stood for our names: Sara, Ashley, Jennafer, and Alisha) and Girlz with Attitudez.
31. I honestly thought we would be famous someday...funny thing is...past middle school I no longer talked to any of these girls (ok...every now and then Sara and I talk on facebook).
32. Even funnier...I can't sing. Well...I don't think I am THAT bad...Kyle tells me otherwise. But he is a good singer, so maybe he would know.
33. If I could wear a dress everyday, I would.
34. I have had my heart broken...
35. And I have broken hearts.
36. The one thing I hate more than anything is a lie. Big or small, I always want the truth.
37. Sometimes I day dream about how life would be if my dad were still here.
38. I live my life as if he were. Kinda like WWDS. What Would Dad Say? Haha.
39. I wish I could help the people in my family that need it. And deserve it.
40. I used to HATE my name. I wanted something "cooler" and unique. Now I don't mind...
41. But I don't like when people pronounce it wrong. JennAfer DOES in fact sound different than JennIfer. Please go with Jenna if you don't get it.
42. I have always loved to bake. I remember getting and Easy Bake Oven when I was a kid...and I also remember I only made the few packs it came with...the portions were simply too small!
43. So a few Christmases later I got cookie sheets and recipe books.
44. But I still cannot bake a decent cookie.
45. I don't remember having chicken pox...I was only a few months old.
46. But I do remember telling the other kids that I was too young to cry. I was apparently very confused. It would be awesome if babies didn't cry until they were...maybe one!
47. I want to travel all over; Greece, Australia, France, England, ect.
48. I get REALLY frustrated when it takes me more than one time/try to learn something.
49. I LOVE roller coasters...even though they scare me.
50. I am seriously claustrophobic. I was not always. I don't know when this started.
51. I was taught that all girls are princesses...I still believe this.
52. I slept with a blankie until I was 20...and yes, I am nearly positive it is in storage.
53. I cry in movies. This tends to be embarrassing.
54. I have no patience. Ok...some when I want it...but otherwise notta.
55. I am soooo glad facebook/myspace/youtube didn't exist when I was in high school.
56. I have always hated gym class. Yes, I was the kid that stood in one place while the other kids played dodgeball. This worked out well...as I would typically get "out" fairly soon...but the times I was one of the last somehow was the worst!
57. I got a bad perm in 6th grade and had to cut my hair so short the back was shaved some.
58. I got teased for this.
59. I was mean to some people in middle school and high school. I don't know why...but I remember poking fun (I seriously feel bad about this now).
60. My style has changed a million times over the years...but I do think I have finally found "me".
61. I met a girl named Kristan my first year of college...when I first saw her I said to myself "I would NEVER be friends with her" ironically we became really good friends and I learned not to judge a book by it's cover.
62. She also taught me how to be positive and optimistic.
63. We haven't talked in years, but if I could, I would thank her from the bottom of my heart. She really changed how I view things.
64. My first kiss was behind the shed with the neighbor boy. I was 3.
65. I love thunderstorms...
66. But severe weather tends to scare me.
67. I love getting mail...real mail. But not bills.
68. I love a good hug. I wish it were normal to hug people besides family when you leave. It always feels awkward to just say "bye" and walk away.
69. I love gardening...but I am not any good at it.
70. I seriously have to shower...every. day.
71. I love buying gifts for people...
72. Even better, I enjoy making them.
73. I own more makeup than any one person could ever use.
74. I hate when people judge me.
75. I hate when people stop when there is no stop sign...drives me crazy.
76. I am terrified of the dentist.
78. I have had several pets in my life...but I had a big dog named Bear and he was by far my favorite.
79. I love powder cheese. Not like parmesan cheese...like cheese puffs, cheese curls, cheese balls...
80. But I am not much of a real cheese eater.
81. I finally know what love is...and couldn't be happier.
82. I love pictures...but I always feel silly taking them.
83. I love dressing up.
84. I get really annoyed with rude people...and unapologetic people.
85. I wish I liked to eat a larger variety of foods.
86. I had a teacher tell my parents that she thought I was on drugs because I didn't talk to the other kids in class. Luckily my parents knew that this was untrue. I was just not friends with anyone in that class.
87. I have always gotten along better with guys than girls.
88. I love a good laugh.
89. Popcorn is probably one of my most favorite snacks.
90. I have always had issues with self confidence. I always think I am too tall or too fat or too dressed up...or not enough. Something is always flawed.
91. I am a "day" person. I don't like early mornings or late nights...with some exceptions.
92. My favorite color is green. Just about any green. Purple would be next...then pink.
93. I try to live my life with no regrets. You can't take back your past so you might as well embrace it.
94. I cut my own bangs regularly.
95. I would do just about anything for my friends and family. You guys mean the world to me.
96. I don't mind doing laundry...but I hate putting it away.
97. I have always wanted to learn how to dance.
98. I am really bad at math. I used to cry while attempting my homework. Luckily all the math I do use I fully understood. Algebra is NOT useful. For me anyways.
99. I consider myself a Christian...yet I have only been to church a few times in my life. Since everything is based on interpretation...I don't like someone telling me what to think. If you go and enjoy it...that's awesome. To each our own with this topic.
100. This was so much more difficult that I initially thought!
If you actually read through all of this...you are truly awesome. :)